Friday, May 13, 2011

My ever changing normal

Almost 2 years ago, I started working part time at a kids resale store. I remember so vividly how the impact of the idea of working outside the home hit me. I cried and cried. I could no longer call my self a "stay at home mom" like I had for 10 years. I had no idea what this would look like in our home or how we would pull it off.

For 5 months, I worked during the day and Cory did the homeschooling. When Cory started working as well, we had to adjust again. I went to nights 4 nights a week and he was working all day. Figuring out child care was an ongoing challenge. We started giving our kids more responsibility and freedoms.

The adjusting and depending on others to help so much was very difficult but we finally got into a rhythm. We figured out (most of the time) how to make this new life work.
We waited and waited and waited for our mortgage company to offer us a modification. We started the process over countless times. I spent entire days on the phone being transferred from one dept to another and being told something different each time. I was frustrated and at my wits end. I knew in my heart that God's timing is far better than mine but my head did not always listen.

Well, after much back and forth, we did receive an offer and with our new payment amount, I am able to quit my job and return home.

I am so thankful for the job God provided for me and the great boss and co-workers I had the opportunity to work with. But now I am excited to come home to my kids.
I also am looking forward to building my doula business and pursuing a long time passion and dream of mine. I love that the doula work will still allow me to be home most of the time and to get paid doing something I love.

It has been a hard and stressful couple of years for our family. I am so thankful that our bumpy road is coming to some smooth pavement. I know there will be potholes in the future and we may even have some off road experiences. But, for right now, I am enjoying the ride.


Mimi said...

Thank you Jesus!!! :)

Largaespada Family said...

What a journey! I know it's been hard. The path the Lord takes us on isn't always the most desired, but wow, do we experience life, grow, learn, and gain perspective. I know that to be true for me. I am SO excited to know you will be able to be at home more and pursue that dream!

Love you!!!


Flamingo said...

yea for you ! wow! i can't believe it's been 2 years. I cant imagine how hard that must have been! and guess what? i'm bringing my oldest home from PS next year to homeschool!! yikes!! my youngest 3 are going to school. if it goes well we will bring them all home over time. or we will send the oldest one back. lol lol

Kelly said...

I'm so happy for you! I know you have been patiently waiting for this day! (well, usually patiently :)

Jess said...

Excited for you!