Well, school decisions have been made and my kids are officially registered for next with the same school that they have been with. I am very relieved to have this one piece of "unsureness" settled.
My pastor's last Sunday was this past week. It was sad to him end his 20 year ministry at my church. It is difficult to imagine what our congregation will be without him. I am excited and happy for this new adventure in his life and I am slightly anxious about the new adventure in our church. I am excited to see how God will take this hard time and bring something beautiful from it.
House stuff... Well, still waiting. I have gone back and forth with this mortgage company for about 2 years now and it's always the same... waiting. I hate waiting. I really do. I am ready for this to be finalized and done and to know what our life will look like.
I am currently overrun with cookies, yes, cookies. I am a girl scout leader to 27 girls and it is cookie time around here. By the end of it all, our troop will have sold approximately 3500 boxes of cookies!! And, by the way, they all started at my house before being distributed out. What does that mean? O, just that I have not had a living room for a couple weeks :) It's fun, it's crazy, it's cookie time!!
Still plugging away at Doula stuff. I am looking forward to my first official appt. this Saturday. I am also scheduled to attend a training seminar the 1st weekend of March! Looking forward to have the training behind the passion.
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
An Unsure Future
We have not even hit the end of January and this year already feels so unsure. Some days I don't think about it all, other days my head is spinning.
It is just one of those times where I am reminded again how NOT in control I am of my life and what goes on around me. From our home to our church to our families to our schooling. Things are just unsure.
We continue in the process for a Home Modification because of the 16 months of unemployment for Cory. We are still not sure what our monthly payments will be and we are not sure how that is all going to work out. But, the thought of leaving the neighborhood and community we are part of scares me to death.
My Pastor of 20 years just announced his resignation a couple weeks ago at my church. Although I am excited for this new phase of life for him and his family, it is hard to imagine what our church will look like without their family. We also had the air conditioners stolen last week and the entire body seems to be in a state of uncertainty. I don't know what the future holds. I don't know if we will be able to sustain the money needed to keep our building. I have attended this church since I was 4 years old and my heart aches for the trials it has endured.
Different members of my family are going through different life-changing events. I want to be the support, I want to be the shoulder, but I feel ill equipped and out of time to spare.
We have been part of the same Christian/Homeschool School for 5 years and my plan was to stay there for the remainder of my children's schooling. However, next year seems impossible for us to stay where we are. So, now we are looking at other options and not sure what that looks like for our family. I feel guilty with the possibility of moving my kids from their friends, I want them to be part of a school that will allow them to succeed and my options are minimal.
Life feels unsettled and unsure. I just want to know if it is going to feel this way till I get to Heaven or if there will be a time of rest before I leave this Earth. Trying to rest in His Sovereignty. Trying to "not worry about tomorrow because tomorrow has enough worries of it's own". Trying to live out what I know to be true. Right now, I am tired.
It is just one of those times where I am reminded again how NOT in control I am of my life and what goes on around me. From our home to our church to our families to our schooling. Things are just unsure.
We continue in the process for a Home Modification because of the 16 months of unemployment for Cory. We are still not sure what our monthly payments will be and we are not sure how that is all going to work out. But, the thought of leaving the neighborhood and community we are part of scares me to death.
My Pastor of 20 years just announced his resignation a couple weeks ago at my church. Although I am excited for this new phase of life for him and his family, it is hard to imagine what our church will look like without their family. We also had the air conditioners stolen last week and the entire body seems to be in a state of uncertainty. I don't know what the future holds. I don't know if we will be able to sustain the money needed to keep our building. I have attended this church since I was 4 years old and my heart aches for the trials it has endured.
Different members of my family are going through different life-changing events. I want to be the support, I want to be the shoulder, but I feel ill equipped and out of time to spare.
We have been part of the same Christian/Homeschool School for 5 years and my plan was to stay there for the remainder of my children's schooling. However, next year seems impossible for us to stay where we are. So, now we are looking at other options and not sure what that looks like for our family. I feel guilty with the possibility of moving my kids from their friends, I want them to be part of a school that will allow them to succeed and my options are minimal.
Life feels unsettled and unsure. I just want to know if it is going to feel this way till I get to Heaven or if there will be a time of rest before I leave this Earth. Trying to rest in His Sovereignty. Trying to "not worry about tomorrow because tomorrow has enough worries of it's own". Trying to live out what I know to be true. Right now, I am tired.
Thursday, March 5, 2009
A Great Weekend of Growth
This last Friday and Saturday, I went to a conference at our church. It started on Friday evening. Most of the women went home Friday night and came back the next morning, but a couple friends and me decided to make it a sleepover at the church. We brought blow-up mattresses and just made ourselves at home. The only problem was that the church does not have any showers. So, in the morning we had to freshen up the European way :)
Anyway, the next morning we started again at 9 and went all the way until after 8 p.m. It was such a great time of refreshing my relationship with the Lord and VERY needed.
The overall theme was learning how to love God from a child like perspective. We focused on those verses that talk about having the faith of a child and only being able to enter the kingdom of Heaven if we are like these children. Then, we broke that down and discovered what that really looked like.
It was so eye-opening for me. God really used this time to reveal some stuff to me that needed revealing a long time ago. For some reason, He is just patient enough to wait around until we FINALLY figure it out. Praise the Lord!!
I think one of my favorite parts was the 45 minutes of silence. We were challenged to learn the spiritual discipline of silence. In our society, we want so badly for there to be music playing or the t.v. on or to be talking to someone. But, silence? We don't do that very well. I have to say, that 45 minutes of silence was like a breath of fresh air. God spoke more clearly to me than I have been able to hear in a long time.
Thank you, Abba, for pursuing me and finding me and not giving up on my lazy and stubborn heart.
Anyway, the next morning we started again at 9 and went all the way until after 8 p.m. It was such a great time of refreshing my relationship with the Lord and VERY needed.
The overall theme was learning how to love God from a child like perspective. We focused on those verses that talk about having the faith of a child and only being able to enter the kingdom of Heaven if we are like these children. Then, we broke that down and discovered what that really looked like.
It was so eye-opening for me. God really used this time to reveal some stuff to me that needed revealing a long time ago. For some reason, He is just patient enough to wait around until we FINALLY figure it out. Praise the Lord!!
I think one of my favorite parts was the 45 minutes of silence. We were challenged to learn the spiritual discipline of silence. In our society, we want so badly for there to be music playing or the t.v. on or to be talking to someone. But, silence? We don't do that very well. I have to say, that 45 minutes of silence was like a breath of fresh air. God spoke more clearly to me than I have been able to hear in a long time.
Thank you, Abba, for pursuing me and finding me and not giving up on my lazy and stubborn heart.
Tuesday, October 7, 2008
Loving Well
Well, we did it! On Saturday morning, Jaime and I shared our testimony of how God has taken a relationship that was once very broken and has restored it to something wonderful. I am not going to write the entire thing here. If you want all the details, you can go over to Jaime's blog and read the whole thing.Basically, we believed a lot of Satan's lies about each other and really didn't like each other all that well. We disagreed about most things and we were very bitter.
Amazingly, God redeemed our relationship and now she is one of my closest friends. We can't imagine what life would be like if we hadn't chosen to do the hard work of restoration.
Praise the Lord for bringing life back to something that was dead!!
By the way, the picture above is Jaime and I at the retreat. She refused to post this picture on her blog because she thought she looked terrible. I think the picture is super cute (especially of me :), so here it is.
The overall message of the retreat was "Loving Well". The sessions were from Beth Moore (via video). I don't know if you have ever done a Beth Moore study before, but she is just incredible. I love her to death!
I was very challenged to love the people in my life better than I do. It was a great weekend full of tears, laughter and sharing. You know, just what a woman loves :) I look forward to living out what I learned.
Saturday, October 4, 2008
Women's Retreat
Right now, I am in Jacksonville, FL on a Women's Retreat with my church.
I am looking forward to a refreshing weekend with me and God. I need it. I have allowed myself to use the busyness of school, work and life to put my relationship with God on the back burner. I am really looking forward to spending some good, quality time with my Lord.
I am also going to be speaking at the retreat this year. My sister-in-law and I are going to be sharing our story of a broken relationship being restored. This is the first time I've shared my testimony about anything in front of any large group. I usually don't get nervous very easily, but I have never done this before. So, we'll see how it goes.
Please pray that the Jesus speaks to each and every woman present this weekend.
I am looking forward to a refreshing weekend with me and God. I need it. I have allowed myself to use the busyness of school, work and life to put my relationship with God on the back burner. I am really looking forward to spending some good, quality time with my Lord.
I am also going to be speaking at the retreat this year. My sister-in-law and I are going to be sharing our story of a broken relationship being restored. This is the first time I've shared my testimony about anything in front of any large group. I usually don't get nervous very easily, but I have never done this before. So, we'll see how it goes.
Please pray that the Jesus speaks to each and every woman present this weekend.
Friday, October 3, 2008
Frugal Life Small Group
Jess and I are starting a new small group on Wednesday Oct. 8th. We are going to be talking about how to live frugally and get the best deal for your buck. We will be talking about everything from grocery shopping/coupons/sales to CVS to setting up a budget.
I have realized what a blessing it has been to learn more and more in this area and I am sure there are people out there who want to learn the same thing, but don't know how. So, if you a blog stalker from my church and want to join, just show up next Wednesday (7-8:30 p.m.)
It seems like times couldn't be more appropriate for us to learn to live on less and less.
I have realized what a blessing it has been to learn more and more in this area and I am sure there are people out there who want to learn the same thing, but don't know how. So, if you a blog stalker from my church and want to join, just show up next Wednesday (7-8:30 p.m.)
It seems like times couldn't be more appropriate for us to learn to live on less and less.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
"SPEAK!", The Musical... Starring Morgan
This weekend at church, the kids performed their very first musical. They have been practicing for months and it turned out really great! Morgan was one of the lead parts for the performances on Wednesday night and Sunday morning (first service). She did so great and I was so impressed by her acting skills.
Her sisters and cousin were in the choir also and they all did fabulous. They had so much fun and I could hardly keep from crying as I watched them all up there singing their hearts out about Jesus.
Unfortunately, we couldn't find our video camera this morning. I say unfortunately, but this morning, I was on the verge of tears. I was so disappointed that we missed the opportunity to record this. I did get a couple of short videos on my still camera and I will be hounding some other parents for copies of their video.
The basic storyline to the musical is that Emily (Morgan) just found out her parents are getting a divorce and is really upset. Her friend Hannah (Tori) tries to comfort her and share Jesus with her. In the end, Emily becomes a Christian and sings how Jesus is her King and Best Friend.
Here are some pictures to enjoy.
Group shot
My Sydney girl
My Girls
Morgan's solo
Her sisters and cousin were in the choir also and they all did fabulous. They had so much fun and I could hardly keep from crying as I watched them all up there singing their hearts out about Jesus.
Unfortunately, we couldn't find our video camera this morning. I say unfortunately, but this morning, I was on the verge of tears. I was so disappointed that we missed the opportunity to record this. I did get a couple of short videos on my still camera and I will be hounding some other parents for copies of their video.
The basic storyline to the musical is that Emily (Morgan) just found out her parents are getting a divorce and is really upset. Her friend Hannah (Tori) tries to comfort her and share Jesus with her. In the end, Emily becomes a Christian and sings how Jesus is her King and Best Friend.
Here are some pictures to enjoy.
Morgan (left) and Tori (right)
Group shot
My Sydney girl
My Girls
Morgan's solo
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